Depression?: Lesson Learned

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Started On: 02/17/09

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Lesson Learned

For several years I suffered from depression, but never sought help because of an assumed stigma attached to receiving therapy. I managed to get by until the death of my step-father. My depression took a sudden and major turn for the worse and I got caught in a downward spiral of suicidal thoughts and antisocial behavior until one day I woke up and decided I couldn't live my life that way. I ended up in the office of student health at the university I was enrolled in, waiting to see a therapist in hopes of getting some relief from my pain. I was ultimately diagnosed as being severely depressed in addition to suffering from moderate anxiety. Since then I've had vast improvements in my mood, but I have learned that it is really my decision to be happy that makes the most difference. If i wake up with a positive outlook I tend to have a better day and it is easier for me to find reasons to be happy. As for the stigma I haven't encountered any, and really wish I had gotten help sooner. I feel like I might not have ended up as bad as I did had I learned to deal with my feelings better earlier in life.

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rockchic84

Tue, Jul 28 06:42 PM

RE: Lesson Learned - added: Tue, Jul 28 06:42 PM

That's very interesting! I suffered from depression since I was 10 years old, my brother committed suicide when I was 10 years of age. I could understand why he left me behind, I had endless therapy. I had depression for over 5 years, I finally got off the harmful medications. The medications were not safe! So called doctor in wellington hospital told me they were safe, why the hell I over dosed and my heart all most gave out and stop beating? The ambulance lady told me to stay awake as much as I can or I would go into deep sleep and never wake up. My boyfriend at the time was controlled by his mother, which she drove me to suicide. My boyfriend married me later on, but the pain I felt! His mother is pure evil, another girlfriend his new current one, said his mother is pure evil even I know that! But bes to get help I had the guts to ask for a counsellor and it's great been waiting for it for 1 month!

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bal

Thu, Mar 12 04:23 AM

same here - added: Thu, Mar 12 04:23 AM

I have always been a depressive, although alot it has to do with my upbringing. Was prescribed anti-depressants at 14 yrs old, now 27.

No-one understands me, I can't explain why I feel down, empty, lost confused? The only person that could understand me was my mum, who passed away last year. This led me to alcohol abuse, and being on anti-depressants, thats something you shouldn't do!

I'm ok now, lost my job, moved in with ex. Now just taking each day as it comes. I've stopped taking anti-depressants, because they make me feel 'numb'. Trying to cope, but the suicidal thoughts are still there.

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rockchic84

Tue, Jul 28 06:47 PM View Full Thread (0) Comment (0)

RE: same here - added: Tue, Jul 28 06:47 PM

Well only you can understand yourself no one can do that for you. You should explore life coaching it's amazing what you'll find out about who you are as a person. I've stopped taking anti-depressants as well, because they make me feel 'numb' which sucks. I now take st Johns wort herbal pills, it calms your nerves down. Using st Johns wort is worth trying and get therapy from a counsellor or a life coach, read life coaching books. When my marriage ended I ended up so sad I had to do some thing, reading Instant life coaching book helped turn my life around for 2 years that book helped me. You should try it too!

whoami

Tue, Mar 03 07:34 PM

good for you - added: Tue, Mar 03 07:34 PM

for having the guts to admit you need help. perhaps more than a few people you know have felt this same way but have been too scared to admit it and ask for help. Maybe some have taken the ultimate step to kill the pain. there is great pressure around us to appear and to act "normal." somebody please explain to me what that really is.

to be extraordinary is to accept yourself for who you are, to realize you are not happy as you are, and to strive to become the person you will be.

Jeez, I started drinking so long ago I don't even know why. I only know I must be depressed. why else would i continue to drink years after the fun of partying wore off and the ill effects appeared.

just know that each of us has worth and something to give to this planet and those around us. you will escape. life will always be hard, there are no guarantees of an easy path. in fact, the easy path does not lead to success. as the SEALs say, the only easy day was yesterday.

keep with the counseling.