I have always been a depressive, although alot it has to do with my upbringing. Was prescribed anti-depressants at 14 yrs old, now 27.
No-one understands me, I can't explain why I feel down, empty, lost confused? The only person that could understand me was my mum, who passed away last year. This led me to alcohol abuse, and being on anti-depressants, thats something you shouldn't do!
I'm ok now, lost my job, moved in with ex. Now just taking each day as it comes. I've stopped taking anti-depressants, because they make me feel 'numb'. Trying to cope, but the suicidal thoughts are still there.