I am normally a shy person to say how I feel or simply use to not speaking my mind..Its been a while ...well here goes.. I am feeling down today cause today marks 5 years since my father past away.. he was my everything .. everything I did I would consult with him he would guide me when life was tough on me..there was not a day that did not go by that we would talk or in person or onthe phone people use to say that we looked like boyfreind girlfriend relationship.. he would know everything about me ..we were close...now I feel completely lost with out him like I do not care if life passes me by..NUMB..I do not feel anything.. I want  to change but it is hard.. doing it little by little need to change for I have two boys that I want  to give them memories as my father did for me if it weren"t for those memories I would go crazy...