Hello all.

Im a smoker!!! im 32 and have been smoking really ....i guess almost 20 years now. I used to hang out with the older kids and was so kool cause I smoked....Well after all this time ....IM still smoking. Its really all I know. 

I wanna quit but dont really wanna quit. I know I NEED to quit. 

I do have some issues with quitting which has made me not try to actually quit. 

Like I said before.......Its really all I know. When I go out ...its a great way to go outside and meet other people.  I go to alot of bars but feel when  the convo gets sour ...its time to run for a smoke...what do I do if I quit???I go outto places, im really shy if im not in my own element. I get alittle uncomftorble with places and shy up. My trusty smokes are always there to comfort me when I feel out of place. More often than not .....ciggs have helped  me meet people and enjoy social situations alittle better than if I wasnt smoking.

What will I do if I quit????

Although 

Im an impatiednt person to begin with and hate to wait for things......ie. trains, doctors, food, appointments, ect ect ect. What better way to kill that time than with a smoke....

What will I do if I quit? 

As a smoker...I suppose I have a bit of a oral fixation like most of us....When Im not smoking now im stuffing my face. Smoking helps me maintain food cravings inbetween meals. Although I do maintain a active lifestyle, what will I do if I quit??? How much more will I eat??? How much weight will I gain. 

I know I MUST quit. I must quit for my health, my future, my lifestyle < I do alot of activities which require breathing! <LOL ie. sports SCUBA diving ect ect ect>   I just dont know how many other facets of my life will be affected one i make the big leap.

If any of you feel the same way, get back to me and maybe we can figure out a way around this together!