father's day 2005 I woke up on my dead husband.  He had over dosed.  I feel a lot of blame as I was leaving him at the moment.  And part of what he OD'ed on were my pills that I left with in reach.  I see his face every day. we were together for 10 years.  My inlaws took custody of the kids a year earlier so I basically lost my intire family....I was 27.