Lost, lonely, depressed, angry, and anxiety ridden
Life hasn't been too kind and I have people that are trying to play with me mentally. Including one that stole from me and has signficant drug and alcohol issues. I've been harrassed in the past leading to anger and rage. Mentally played with by my own father that wants to control everything. Forced not to take jobs after attending college. Just so he could get tax breaks and because he doesn't want anyone more successful than himself. I've taken a lot of Mental Abuse.
on the whole lost, lonely, depressed, angry, and anxiety ridden. Oh yeah overweight doesn't help either. You're on this website to change right? Maybe the biggest change you need to make is letting go of the negative influences that bring your mental state and career down. Letting go of your expectations of that person, or letting go of them complety out of your life, you need to take charge and not play by their game because you ended up losing.
You should start taking care of yourself, be completly selfish, and anyone who doesn't support you in advancing in your life you should leave them behind. You take control of your life and don't let your past issues bring you down. Stay strong.