Today 31st july I signed up with you guys. Why? well theres been a lot going on with me over the years. today last year my mum sadly died. I miss her vioce answering the phone, I miss her i just miss her.Though I just carried on as normal. When I saw my mum lying there after she passed away it mis prioade me see another start to my own life anI wasnt hd the sad changes I had to make soi here goes see if you can all help me with this. Firstly I am  a sensative kind woman, im intelligent attractive and I olove people. Nice people that is. I choose my freinds very selectivley and have been trying recently to get the negativlty away from myself and my home. Nearly ten years ago after a dramitc relationship and having 2 kids I left their father he was a drug and alcholic and made ourlives hell. I met a charming handsome man and after 3 and half years I married him. I wanted my marriage to be beautiful. He wanted a slave a skivy. He was never there when i really needed him and in depth he was selfich, cold and uncaring.I was his priority, even to the point if he was with people he tell them to say he wasnt there. He became lazy, no interest in the home, he leave me alone for most of the day. He dress up in the latest fashion and out he go. Arrogant and thoughtless. It took  me on seening my mother dead to realise it was time for change. I miss him but my family were happy I did it, though the hurt still remains always at the back of my head.(if only) together we made twin boys sadly died before they were born followed by another miscarriage. I know whAT A GLOOMY WOMAN i AM. Not really trust me there are ni lines on my face and I laugh at the jokes and I go to work as being with people is a real tonic and i can earn my living. But i loved him more than words can say, he a liar too. Not to be trusted. He would shout at anything and everything.Why why why I ask. The starngew\ thing is he feels he the victim??omg???? really he does.He obviously lied about me too. He now living with another. But that not my problem. the problem is. He my husband not a very good one none the less he still is.I find it hard to let go. despite every thing. There are so many who like and ,ove me and god that a great feeling. So what you think? I will never forget him never I just want to forget the bad thigs please help me to do this. with all my heart i than you.

Lucy