Day 90

Probably the biggest success I haven't written about to date is getting along a lot better with my husband.  Remembering his good points, and speaking passionately out loud what it is I want in our relationship and what I already have in it is vital.  A very helpful affirmation towards him is appreciation, it also serves to remind myself to do things he appreciates also. By the way, it's our 33rd wedding anniversary today.

 We are very different in our tastes.  I even suggested a small writing desk that suited his taste.  That is the first time in 33 years he agreed with a suggestion I had for our home.  We compromise a lot.  This time it was all about him.   I looked for the features he would appreciate.  My joy came in listening and meeting his need.  

I have been struggling with severe allergies since shortly after the program began, so I think getting the little accomplishments done amidst taking care of those things is to be applauded.  Now, I am working on goals of total life style changes in eating... no milk even, to help with the allergies.  So the work continues.

Getting to be on time takes alot more effort when I think of leaving my space organized, and I am doing that, too.  (OK, are you wondering how I made it this far with out doing that in my entire life?)  Things are a lot simpler when a person is their normal size. 

So that is the biggest change, I am moving easier. I haven't started any new plans, but I am consistent with the movement things that work.

And the biggest thing is that I don't ever feel like driving my car into the river, even when the disc pian is most severe.    Those fleeting suicidal thoughts that added to the battle of concentrating on doing the things to be healthy aren't challenging me.  This is accomplished thorugh using tools, not through anti-depresant pills for 8 months.  So that is a great success. 

I am looking forward to further success in my life I as I continue to do the exercises which I have found to be agreeable with my belief system that God truly is Good.

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