It's tools day 30 and I am so noticing a more positive focus to my life, even in thinking about my ex and the family things I am coping with. Life does seem manageable, I like myself a lot more, and I am happier in each and every way. There's still a little shallow part of me that likes being so happy when my ex is obviously so not, but hey, turnabout is fair play, eh? and the man is chronically depressed and I can't change that. After all, the only attitude I can change is my own, right?
I am DREAMING again, after several months with no dreams. I love it. Mind you, it's matched with an increase in my pain level, but that's also hormonal, so I know it will ease up again. Plus I think I have an allergy to chocolate, as when I eat it, I get joint pain. Odd, eh? Probably my inner voice telling me to BEHAVE.
Am looking forward to goal setting and have my image in my mind of me at 135 lbs, healthy and hearty and in love. With my life. I'll be packing up to move to the country, having found my new home, and I'll be leaving dratted ex behind. Tra la tra la!