Baisicaly I have been shuffled from school to school, by the time I was in 5th grade I had already attended 3 different schools, by the 8th I had attended 2 more, and by the time I had my GED, 2 different high schools. I am not a trouble maker, I have been forced out of each school for some reason or another, all of which I can't change, nothing terrible. But I do regret not just sticking with school and not giving up so easy. I also have grown up in an unstable house hold that was bent way out of proportion. My father left when I was 10 so I could not recive the male role model, nor answer basic questions about how to keep my self from smelling bad, or find a girl friend. Lucky, I found a web site online called the pickup artist forums, its dating advice on how to start meeting and attracting different women. But unfortunently I could not use the confidience tequinks ery long because it was not in me. I was not working, nor had allot of money so I fell when my girl friend who had fallen in love with me regardless of my status. I was going through difficult fazes with my family, my school, and my future. I had to decide GED or High school diploma. GED was the best choice I could have made. But slacking in school is still a problem. My mom married my step dad who has 3 kids and are still together. My mom was unimployed so I am thinking thats why she married him...allong with a hell of alot other reasons, not that I say she is a gold digger...far from it. But my step dads ex-wife is a gold digger. She married a millionare in sugarland huston and pull the bank account into paying awesome lawyers to fight my step dad in court atleast 2-3 times every few years for custody rights for their kids. Its been an ongoing battle between my step dad vs his ex. my mom vs. step dad. and my mom vs dad(the least worries here) and last but not least, my sister lauren. She abused me allot, I tried to make her happy but its impossible. No madder what I do, she just wants more attention and gifts. I wore rags to school every day, my step dads side of the family had seemingly bottomless resources to fund my step sisters good looks, chases "potential" and carsons massive collection of toys and games. But only enough for me to go shopping 2 times a year for clothing and other things I wanted, but other famliy members got. I can't begin to count the things I started but could not finish because of short funding, only to be smited down by my sibbilings for there own gradification. They sucked allot of me into them, then got the good rep for it. Of course, I let it happen because I thought it was for the good...the way I used to think, don't treat others the way you wouldent want to be treated. But they don't think that way, they just suck in all I had and then gave nothing in return. Lauren, my sister...what a pain in the neck. She was the biggest slutt in our school, I would have to recive her wrap at school every day. Do you know what its like to have sombody saying "Hey, I tapped your sister ass last night" or something of that equeviliance on the daily basis at school? Bad grades made class suck. Not having any friends to eat lunch with is the 2nd thing. The people around me only hang out with the people who dress alike...like my rags? no.

I decided one day that it was time to change. I broke off from my family. Said by to mom and not saying a word to everybody else. I was so intensely motivated during that point in time I was able to break my vices: ciggarets, bad health, and drugs. Only to have one come back...drugs, nothing to hard core. Just marijuana, I belive its becoming an addiction. But I can't quit it because my friends smoke it. So its just around, somthing to do, and with out it I dont think I would have any sort of social life.

I am sitting in my room looking for a change. Somthing that would spark my modivation more than anything. I know what I want, also where I want to be and live. But as of now, my future looks the same as my past. neither good, but not terrible. atleast i don't suffer as often as I used to.

But I want improvments in my near future.