When we, to ourself, continue to deceive. Ego Self lies to TRUE Self; Ego self tries to make excuses to TRUE Self; Ego Self accomplishes living in a bubble of a created existence for TRUE Self;.....when all around the bubble there exists only self-deception.
We ignore the obvious and, instead, opt for that which will give Ego Self permission to turn a blind eye to TRUE Self.
Ego Self says to Self - "Hang in there, you can fix it", when, in fact TRUE Self knows better. It can't be fixed. It is broken- beyond repair. But, ego bound, hard headed Self continues to engage and masters the art of Self Deception.
How can this be? Easy. Ego-bound Self totally ignores TRUE self and TRUE inner guidance. Ego bound Self is conditioned to be a victim, and sets it up every time for a continual battle.
Exhausting? Of course it is! But, Ego Self thrives on the battle and the drama and the victimization that it is creating.... meanwhile, TRUE Self silently cries and wonders when Ego Self is just going to go away silently, and stop raging over something that - in the overall scheme of things - is SO insignificant.
Ego Self has been screaming out for validation. What? You ask. Yes, somewhere along the line of time, Ego Self THOUGHT that it needed validation from another. If that other person decides that he doesn't love her any longer, then Ego Self has a tantrum! How DARE he decide that I'm not good enough!
But, wait.... TRUE Self needs NO Validation of love. TRUE Self KNOWS that she is loved, and a loving person. TRUE Self doesn't NEED to live up to someone else's standards - TRUE Self has its own set of rules to live by - and is guided by GENUINE love of TRUE Self.
So, on this day as I re-visit "TOOLS" - after leaving them in the garage for so long, TRUE Self stands tall once again and proclaims her inner joy and liberation from Ego Self.
And this, in a nutshell, is where Jane has been in JaneLand - curled in a dark basement listening to the lies that Ego Self is perpetrating.... and, finally, saying - Shut the *F* up you lying sack of *s#*. I AM love, I AM worthy, and that's all there is to that!