I dunno

So my birthday is Friday.  This is the first time since I turned 12 that I've actually been excited about anything significant in my life beforehand. 

Prom night didn't dawn on me until my dog peed in the middle of my bedroom floor just minutes before I had to put my dress on.  (Those were the days... young and slim, though looking back, I had a severe Star Jones thing going on)  That would be one of the last non-mundane moments she and I spent together. 

Graduation, I didn't cry until a week later.  But given the fact that my sister had passed the week before, I probably should have been in tears much earlier, and am surprised I held it together that long.  And there might have been some trepidation about my impending trip to college and seperation from my then b/f mixed in there too.

But I am totally geeked about this birthday.  Sad thing is that my closest friend is across the (universe) pond in Scotland at the moment.  We're both kinda cash strapped, so a puddle jump just can't be done at the moment.  But I might surprise her if this business plan of mine goes through (fingers crossed)

Maybe it's to do with the case thing as well.  Not sure if I mentioned it, but I loathe owing people money.  And I haven't paid the bills pertaining to my fall last year as per my lawyer's instruction. 

That and I'm going to a Weight Watchers meeting tomorrow night.  My home situation has gotten to the point where I just can't focus on me there, so at the very least I need to go elsewhere to get a grip on my health. 

Weirdest thing.  I go in for my "feel your boobies" last week and the (new) doctor looks over my record and says, "We need to get you screened!"  50 things not related to heredity flooded my mind in the following five seconds, and my face must have showed it.  

"Everything's fine, but given your family medical history, I want to get some tests done for the BRCA gene and see if you may have <a href=http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Li-fraumeni_syndrome or <a href=http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cowden_syndrome> syndrome.  To most, this would be awkward news at best.  I have no idea why I'm excited to have these tests done.  It's like I'm going to take the SATs or something. *inserting humble gloat over 1350 score here*

I feel like Elphaba... "Something has changed within me, something is not the same...  until I try I'll never know!"

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