It's been a while since I have been here.. I am starting over the whole program and this time I am committed to change..I know that its not gonna work if I do not commit so that is why I am getting it down in writing ... I want to do this I know that I can do it..I am not going to make excuses if I am busy or tired.. I want to reconnect to my family have a sense that belonging.. I want to feel good about myself ..especially love myself ... want to make friends I am shy and often that is my failure to make friend I feel that I will say the wrong thing as well as hurt their feelings.. I want to live life to the fullest..