Fear

Yesterday I had a realization that shook me as new and yet I could recognize it as an epiphany I had when I was 16: fear is the most profound of negativities. 

Profound because fear is the root of all negativity, and because it most clearly exposes us to the most powerful of all dangers, the loss of awareness of our real self, our soul.
It is the ego, not the true self, that fears. What does the ego fear? Its own extinction, call it death, call it the other and the others, whatever the ego perceives as separate from itself because they are the boundaries it believes that keep off what it is not. 

The soul knows there is no extinction and there is no other but one. I cannot fear my own hand, unless I have lost awareness of the integrity of my own body. We fear the other because of shortsightedness: we cannot see how much of the other is inside us and how much of me, with all my peculiarities, is right there in you, in him, in her, in the bugs, in the wind. There is no other. There is one. 

The rubbish that has become so dangerous to the integrity of the planet is in no little measure a result of our fears. Our fear and intolerance to other people has made our world aching with with wars. 

So, why fear? what is the purpose in our learning of experiencing fear at all?

Fear is a line drawn in the sand. There is something I haven't learned yet and fear marks it in red: if I don't cross the line because I am caught in fear, I get trapped in anger, in jealousy, in isolation, in anxiety, in doubts... But if I cross it, if I act and cross it, I transform the fear into trust and ultimately in love. Then I am ready to move to another lesson, to another level of existence. 

Is there anything like constructive doubt? Yes, when at stake is not our little ego but a more encompassing and inclusive view of how everything fits together, from the beginning. 

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