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Birth Date: Tue, Mar 29 1960

Place of residence:
Canberra ACT, Australia (map)

I am: In Relationship

Schools: Cert Art & Design

Jobs: Admin at Postnatal Depression group, nightfill at local Supermarket


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Member Since: 08/28/07
Last Login: 09/22/08
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I was 8 I dreamed of going to Sweden. On 13/3/1980 I arrived in Stockholm, not for a moment thinking about the fact that I was on the other side of the world, all by myself. I had the best 7 weeks of my life and can still feel the coldness of snow falling on my tongue for the first time. It was really awesome to hold a snowflake on my finger and see the complexities of shape and colour - perhaps this is where I first got the idea to draw Celtic knots?

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  Beknec

Thu, Nov 22 12:00 AM

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I admit, I am one who has clicked the button every day (except for those forgetful times) and now, the last time I clicked the button was last Friday, a whole week ago. 

 

Now I am fearful each time I think about it because maybe I am going backwards, maybe I will never finish Tools, maybe deep down I just don't want to change no matter how good the results may be, maybe I will just beat myself up until the day I go meet the one who created me (isn't that me? - well it won't be if you don't finish Tools). 

 

Maybe I just need to note that I have been through a couple of big weeks, putting in some pretty impressive hours... and that I literally have not had a spare 20 minutes to log into Tools for five days...  maybe I just need to chill out and not get so worked up about it all, and remember that I am heaps more improved than the day I first started tools! 

 

...and maybe I just need to go get some sleep because it is well after one and I am definitely not the night owl type and I have only been averaging 4-6 hours of kip a night for the last fortnight. 

 

Tomorrow is my designated Tools day, so I will submit all the answers I have scrawled out on paper and then see how many holes that leaves in the last couple of exercises

 

So good night all - "I'm having a great sleep!" 

 

Zzz Zzz Zzz Zzz Zzz...

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