I am lost. I feel paralyzed. Whenever I sit down to write a post or blog or ask a question or even to write in my journal I just lock up. My mind goes blank then it goes in every direction at the same time then blank again, over & over. This ongoing frustration of many emotions & racing thoughts all at the same time has to have a solution & an end somewhere. Right? This shit can't last forever. I feel like basket case, I'm trying to see the forest only the trees keep jumping in my way.
Can't quit tho, can't give up. Over and over throughout my day I go back & forth between giving up hope & being strong, I feel like I'm gonna snap. It's hard to look at the mirror, I see so much good, such a good person yet feel like such a monster for thinking about myself even though I'm not happy. It would be very nice if I could just get a break from my head tho, just for a little bit, it's not a very nice place to be.