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Birth Date: Sat, Mar 22 1958
Place of residence:
Stockport Greater Manchester, United Kingdom (map)
I am: In Relationship
Schools: Maycroft Primary, Brinnington Secondary.
Jobs: RAF Technician, Computer Aided Design Technician, Care Assistant, Forklift Truck Driver, Pub Landlord, Maintenance Assistant
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Bigpaul's Life List:
| Become a father |
| Marry |
| Get my life back together |
| Get myself a new partner |
| Get my weight back down to what it was 3 years ago |
| Go back to Cyprus |
| Start eating a regular breakfast |
| Start getting out and about more often |
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A fav song of mine
ROCK BOTTOM
(words / music c2005 Donnie Mills
Ive struggled with my demons through the choices that Ive made
running from the promises that I always betrayed
I set out to find the answers, I'd too soon forgotten
(then I) came upon a road sign that said "Welcome To Rock Bottom"
Dreary days of endless haze where you never see the sun
lonliness and desperation, population one
I walk these empty streets in search of all the things forgotten
seems like I have made myself at home in Rock Bottom
(chorus)
Rock Bottom is a place thats built on all your broken dreams
where heartache lays its head at night and nothin's what it seems
I had hopes to reach my goals, but too soon I forgot 'em
seems like all the roads Ive chose have led me to Rock Bottom
When you travel down lifes way, be careful that you know
where you rest your head upon the shoulder of that road
remember all the lessons learned, and where it was you got em'
and never get to comfortable when passing through Rock Bottom
(chorus)
Sending positive thoughts...
to help you through. You know you can do this and the best is yet to come. I just finished day 29 and am amazed. I am told the best is still to come for me as well.
I have been there"what's the point", "everything is crappy anyway" and wallow in what really feels sh...ty. Feeling like bursting into tears,screaming,hit something ,or just sleep forever.
Hang on Paul, you are worth the effort.
By all means please vent and blog as much as you feel because we are all here to help each other.
Happiness is just a perception change and you know you have it in you.
LOVE AND LIGHT-SAHNDRA
you there!
hello sunbeam,
i'll sit with you a moment at the bottom of the pit and we'll not talk at all.
just sit.
it's dark, innit?
'cept for you sunbeam... you seem to be rising each second the day ticks by.
i guess that's just what sunbeams do.
i'll see you again here tomorrow.
i like seeing you round.
that's pointed enough.
prickly even!
like goose pimples.
honk hooonk, like a gosling...
waddle waddle.
Keep Your Head Up
In the military they teach you to "fake it till you've got it" SSome days it's your ddetermination that get you through but I know personally that when I feel that way I have to "fake" the eenthusiasm until its real.
This isn't a perfect solution but it's got me through many a tough time and injury. Seeing that you already have the detedetermination I'd say your well on your way, even though it may not feel that way. Good luck and Keep you Head up.