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Tue, Jun 26 01:16 AM

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I have been trying to make myself feel better off and on most of my life. My past is horrible and it made me depressed, anxious, and have low self esteem. I found this site because I was fed up with feeling this way. I want to be the best person I can be for myself and for those around me.

I went thru the whole day 1, it kinda seems silly but, what ever works right?  I set my alarm already but it is on my phone. So what I will do to modify slightly is place my phone on the charger next to my bed in a set spot.

I really want this to work. Before in therapy groups my heart wasn't in it. I didn't want to talk about what happened through out my life because all I hear is, "You poor thing", or "I'm so sorry you had to go through that" I am tired of hearing that. It feels like it makes my heart cold. My personality is lively, bubbly, I don't have to know you to talk to you. I just do I'm random and I don't really care if you like it or not I'm me. Like it or bye.. Lately with my ex's attack I have noticed I'm bottled up. I don't go outside unless its dark, I take everything to heart, I've neglected relationships, I'm just not me. I feel like I'm going to break down at any given moment and go hulk or curl up and ball my ass off all night.

So it's time to flip script and learn a better way to feel better, stay better, and be my happy awesome self all the time.

I would love some friends on here. I lost almost all of mine due to my ex and number change. So if you don't want to feel alone like me and want someone that will help you as well as working on myself feel free to contact me.

Thank you for reading my ramble 8D lol

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Amaesta21 Amaesta21:

Hope

I hope it gets better for you. Good luck on your journey. :) TOOLS helps a lot.

Blossomgirls4 Blossomgirls4:

:)

Thank you, your very sweet 8D

animekid animekid:

Stay the course

I know the title seems cliched, but it is if nothing else accurate. Stay on track with this course and I think you will get the results that you desire. Honestly, I have attempted this course two oither times but I never had the total commitnment that this demands. I think that at this point I'm ready to commit 100% so best of luck to us both, and here's to positive change. :)

Ilovethebrokenones Ilovethebrokenones:

sounds too familar

I don't know what you went through, but I kinda have the same thing going for me, the whole depression, anxiety, low self-esteem. I decided to get help because I was tired of always being down. I know what it's like to always feel like you're about to have a mental breakdown. I'm also pretty good at rambling and being random:) Good luck!

Blossomgirls4 Blossomgirls4:

you all are awesome

I am happy that you all read my blog and relate to me. We all need to stick together and help one another. I love being random :) it helps make the day better.