On to day 4...but I'M going back to day 3 for a little. Alright so I have been doing my checklists and I really do feel an improvement in my outlook in everything. My huni actually calls me when he feels low so I can give him the opportunity out of each "situation" he has. It really helps him as well as me. For example last night I went with my girls to the neighboring towns firework show. At the end of the show was a HUGE explosion with a fireball that I never seen in real life before. People ran screaming away from it. I gave my mother my oldest that was on my lap and ran towards it to see what I could do to help and to make sure everyone was ok. I was on the verge of bursting into tears thinking about the people that could be burnt or those that could be dead. But, then I stopped in my tracks. I wanted to go and help in anyway that I could but, I realized I didn't have the qualifications to go into the area, even tho I knew some things, but I would most likely get in the way. Then I thought about my family how scared they must be and that they could use me more then those over when the explosion was. The fire department and rescue was on call so I could focus on my family. Instead of thinking of who could be lost or hurt I thought about those who survived something so traumatic. I comforted my girls and started to help them understand bad things happen, we can't control them but we can overcome them and it will make us stronger. My oldest responds with, " Mommie that was really scary but, I'm happy we are ok and I really love you mommy" I feel that made more of an impact on me then what I could ever do over at the scene. Later on the way back My huni calls me saying that he isn't in the best of moods and he was wondering what opportunities I can bring to light. He tells me that he's in a certain area and all this time he has barely gotten anything done, the manager was easily distracted tonight and barely helped him, and that he would have to stay late to get it all done. I told him that since he has to stay late then that means he doesn't have to work as much hours later in the week so he would have the opportunity to have time during the weekend to do things he likes to do, also I said that his manager probably trusts him a lot more then she trusts the rest of the crew therefore the things that she must do he can do which means he has the opportunity to learn and have more knowledge under his belt. I lost signal after that but, he took what I said and it changed his outlook for the evening. Which made him work faster, better, and with him in a better mood the manager decided to come out and help him. He calls me later saying that with what I said about the "situation" helped him so much that he was done within 20 minutes after talking to him. BEFORE his scheduled time to close. He gained the opportunity to come home early. So even though he thought of it as a negative situation he changed his outlook and he succeeded in getting done before they even closed!
So onto day 4's tools info..I actually started taking action and responsibility for my life a while ago but not entirely. I would make some good decisions and look at things not as a victim anymore..yes, things have happened in my past but, I did put myself in those situations and I survived and sometimes the only reason WHY I SURVIVED IS BECAUSE OF THE CHOICES I MADE AFTER I WAS ALREADY IN A BAD SPOT. I fought; I thought quickly, I did what I thought was the best thing to do at that time and those choices kept me alive. Now that I started the tools course I have the opportunity to not put myself in a bad spot, not look back at my past as a victim but as a survivor, and to help those around me to do the same. It feels good to think this way instead of "why me..God,why do you think I'm tough enough, I don't feel tough enough" But, now I know I am, I am a fighter, a thinker, a doer, and was strong enough to overcome such situations but, I thought too much like a victim to see that. Now that I do know this, I have decided to go back through each bad time in my life and write out what happened as a surviver and find the opportunity in those situations. So when I talk about them or look back at it all I look at the strong me not the weak me. I am not a victim anymore....and I will never be again.
Thank you Devlyn Steele you have made a HUGE impact in my life