I have been doing pretty good for a while but, I feel like I'm not getting much of an improvement in myself or I'm just lying to myself..With yesterdays lesson it hit pretty hard. I couldn't shake the feeling of gloom over me. I stopped thinking the negatives and tried to focus my attitude on being happy but, I just feel like now that I haven't really been happy this whole time. Just pretending. Or I am happy but getting that feeling I used to have. Not knowing what true happiness is..