I think this program moves to fast for me. Often I feel overwhelmed, just reading the number of items on my daily checklist. Also I am afraid to make commitments I am not sure I can carry out when my fatigue kicks my feet out from under me. But I am still learning and growing. I am beginning to understand human energy fields, and how they work. As I begin to understand this, I am more able to put on a smile, separate myself from my physical pain, and tell people that I am just fine. Today I bought a book on self-hypnosis for pain control. If I am going to commit myself to the power of the mind, might as well go whole hog!
Also, my hubby (who gets great delight in calling me negative) is beginning to wonder what has happened to me, and is beginning to examine how entrenched his own suspiciousness and negativity are. Not that I am telling him anything other than, "Honey, when you lick that stamp and you mail out your curriculum vitae for another position, just say to yourself, 'I know this will be the One!' even if you have to say it fifty times!" He looks at me really surprised. I don't know if he can actually do that yet, but I can see the gears working as he re-considers his attitude.
Today was a great day, full of self love: Chiropractor, massage, Tai Chi class, bookstore...no more disease books, just healing books, hair cut and color, and finally, just to put the cherry on top, a small chocolate chocolate hot fudge sundae. Life is good.