I think this program moves to fast for me. Often I feel overwhelmed, just reading the number of items on my daily checklist. Also I am afraid to make commitments I am not sure I can carry out when my fatigue kicks my feet out from under me. But I am still learning and growing. I am beginning to understand human energy fields, and how they work. As I begin to understand this, I am more able to put on a smile, separate myself from my physical pain, and tell people that I am just fine. Today I bought a book on self-hypnosis for pain control. If I am going to commit myself to the power of the mind, might as well go whole hog!
Also, my hubby (who gets great delight in calling me negative) is beginning to wonder what has happened to me, and is beginning to examine how entrenched his own suspiciousness and negativity are. Not that I am telling him anything other than, "Honey, when you lick that stamp and you mail out your curriculum vitae for another position, just say to yourself, 'I know this will be the One!' even if you have to say it fifty times!" He looks at me really surprised. I don't know if he can actually do that yet, but I can see the gears working as he re-considers his attitude.
Today was a great day, full of self love: Chiropractor, massage, Tai Chi class, bookstore...no more disease books, just healing books, hair cut and color, and finally, just to put the cherry on top, a small chocolate chocolate hot fudge sundae. Life is good.
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Pause a moment and see whose foot is on the gas...
The program will only be too fast for you if you let it be. You are in the driver's seat. You are in full control of both pedals, gas and brake. That's how the program is designed. It's all about you, and you will progress as quickly or as slowly as works for you. If Tools feels too fast or you begin to feel overwhelmed, stop. Think about why you feel that way. Take as long as you need. When, after a deep enough breath, you come back, do only what you can and then stop again.
Hey, I think you're doing great. Just great, Babe.
I love that you're having an effect on Jonathan's outlook as well. Beautiful!
Oh, and self-love is not just a good thing, it's absolutely essential. I'm so glad you're making the time necessary for that. (For me, it's footcare tomorrow, always a pleasant experience.)
You're right, Carla. Life is good.
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Yes, disease books just mess with your head, i find. I much prefer a good "cozy" mystery or a comedy book to ease the savage mind...
Be easy on yourself, sis - pacing pacing pacing, as they say - as you've said, to me...
Thinking positive thoughts your way....
Wishing you the best
Cardinarla, I hope that you can maintain a healthy amount of discipline in your life but also not to be too hard on yourself. Even our so-called mistakes (not a favorite word of mine) can be and almost always are learning experiences. They show us where we want to go. Have patience with yourself. We are all works-in-progress.
Marvel