Just stopping by to check in with y'all. I hope everyone of you are doing well.
I've hit some bumps but it'll all be okay in the end. It could be worse. I can think of a million situations people are in that suck harder than my predicament. Besides, the crappy part of my sitch is so little compared to what this is going to do to my mental health. As some on tools know, Ive got me a case of the borderline personality disorder. For me, I need CBT and DBT therapies. Tools was CBT and it led me to say TIME FOR MEEEEEE! So in May, I'm off to see about an outpatient program for DBT. I'm being screened to see if this program will benefit me. I hope so because I need real change not just partial. Coach told me on the phone call we had, that for me, this would be a harder journey but that I could do it if I remembered black helicopters, (Please go back to previous blogs if you have no idea about black helicopters). I'm remembering black helicopters. I'm doing it and there are crappy days but we all have those.
So while I'm jobless and taking a year to do all this mental health work on myself...I also find time to model for a friend. So as you can see, with a shot like that....life obviously can't be too bad given my sitch. If it was, how would one capture that? I hardly look like anything is wrong. If anything, I look like I have a dream. (At least I think so...if you don't, bugger off...lol)
Take Care Everyone!
Drink your water, smell the flowers, be thankful, dream, choose your attitude, and always try.