Lord please grant me the strength to pull through this in a way that lets my kids stay safe, healthy, and out of reach from his emotional abuse and verbal degredation. I can not change the damage he has already done, but PLEASE let me find a way that to keep their Self esteem, self worth, and emotional wellness concealed from his wrath.
He looked me straight in the eyes and told me 'You dont matter.' I wish he could have at least not said it in front of my 11 year old son. Seeing his reaction and tears fall from his eyes hurt me more than my husband's 3 word sentence did. No child should EVER half to feel emotional pain this deep, this severe.
Durch alle Schmerzen, die Sie haben mich verursacht, und alle der Missbrauch habe ich ertragen, ich habe noch nie so übel - so beschämt - Ihren Nachnamen tragen wie ich jetzt tun. Möge Gott erbarme dich deiner Seele.