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Mon, Jun 25 12:00 AM

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I was asked by some folks if I would make the blog public--I actually thought it was. In spite of my many years of using computers I am quite self taught and can be a complete techno-moron. I am a reasonably private person and don't care to share much of my personal information but generally don't mind sharing my thoughts--except for those times when I feel particularly guarded.

I do have bipolar disorder, as I mentioned before. I take lithium. It is the only medication I can tolerate. Antidepressants make me manic. Otherwise I only experience hypomania. I don't tolerate most medications well and was glad to finally find a doctor that was willing to listen to me and who takes a holistic approach rather than the "you are defective, you WILL take this medication" approach I've found with most doctors. I take thyroid medication and lithium. I cannot afford counseling and my insurance doesn't cover it so don't even ask. County mental health sucks butt. They are used to dealing with critical cases and are overwhelmed. My sense of humor is generally too much for them. They get this stoic shocked look on their faces when I make a wisecrack about something. They're doing the best they can, but they aren't a good solution for me.

I have a lot of extremely esoteric views but generally try to keep my psychological development seperate from my parapsychological development. However, improving one will improve the other.

Right now I am really vacillating between being very productive and hopeful and in the depths of despair. I miss the Old Dude. I liked the story from the person who said that sometimes when a child dies and has no relative to guide them to the afterlife, a cat or dog will come do so. I had never heard that before and think it is great.

An online friend also recently lost her 20 year old Siamese. Maybe my old dude and her old dude will meet and be buddies. I like to think so!

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Kayla Kayla:

Thanks for going public!

Thanks for sharing publicly about your issues with bipolar and medical care.  I think that the way we treat people with mental illness in this country is just horrible.  We are so backwards, still, in our understanding of mental illness as a physiological, medical illness that creates adjustment problems, which call for counseling.  Grrrrrr....  We lose so many of our youth to suicide and violence, which could have been avoided with proper intervention at an early age.  Bravo to you for your courage in speaking up to us.

I am so sorry for your loss of Old Dude.  I am glad you can take comfort in the possibility of his finding friends in the afterlife.

Thanks again for joining us,

Kayla

 

peanutbutterhair peanutbutterhair:

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Hi Cheesemeister,

 

I have bi-polar disorder as well as schizophrenia. I am so glad that you shared with us. I agree that the mental health system sucks. If I relied on the system to help me in my condition, I would have been dead a long time ago. 

 

I also have a lot of esoteric ideas. I've studied the work of Edgar Cayce and am now studying the major world religions in an online course.

 

I'm sorry about your pet. The love for a pet is so special. That was a beautiful story you shared about a dog or cat  guiding a child in the afterlife.

 

Good luck with TOOLS. You are on the right path.

 

Linda