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Birth Date: Tue, Jun 16 1959

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Thu, Jun 12 04:22 PM

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To start this blog:

 

I do not exist.

I never have.

 

When I walk into a room, Everyone leaves.

When I sit at a table, I'm alone in minutes.

This has always been true.

It is Incredible to see.

I don't mind.

I have always been outside of life.

 

God created man.

Cain slew Abel and was exiled to the land

of Nod. (the Wanderers) 

This story infers there were pre-human

beings before Man.

I am their descendant. 

I am not human.

I do not exist.

 

I strongly believe in GOD.

I read The Bible for inspiration.

I am denied.

I am reading the story of the Jewish people.

It does not include me.

I am denied.

I still believe.

I still search.

 

I have yet to read the New Testament.

I don't know if Jesus is mortal, Divine,

or Both.

 

I do believe in His teachings.

Love, Kindness, Honesty, and Courtesy

in all things I do. 

 

and yet....

 

I am denied.

I am outside.

I do not exist. 

 

I believe the glass is half empty.

What is in the glass, must be accepted.

The emptiness can be filled any way I choose. 

 

Life is Problems---Living is solving them.

A problem is only an un-met challenge.

 

I hope to find my problems here.

To solve them.

To, maybe, someday- if GOD will smile

on me - simply  exist. 

 

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I see you...

I hear you...you exist here...you belong here. You're important. You matter. I can't say I know how YOU feel, but I identify with some of the things you say...I feel them. Welcome to this place. Please come back and continue to do the work each day because it is worth it.  Here you can find new beginning.

 

You're not alone You're not alone

Praying for you

No, you are not alone and I am praying for you that God will lift up your heart and give you what you need. 

You do exist

You really do!!!I do not know if this will give yo peace of mind but I have felt that way many a times as well. But you are here, I can hear you, You are imoprtant to me as anyone here is, and you  will be happy...dont let yourslef mellow in the impotence and sadness because it is all that you will see after a while, and therefore it i will reinforce how you feel!

 

Chin up! There will be better times! By the way, you are an amazing poet!!!

 

Lots of love going your way! 

Thank You

 Thank you for your welcome,

encouragement, and Prayers.

 Thank you for the cheers as well. 

All are warmly and gratefully received.

 

 

I've been called a lot of things, but a poet?,

an amazing poet?!!!  LOL!!!

 

Thank you Estrella14, for that smile in my day!! 

 

Best wishes and Blessings to all. 

 

EXCELLENTLY SPLENDID!

I actually saw your blog yesterday, but at the time, I was just browsing while whiling away the time (we had a little birthday celebration going on my end here).  After which I went to tackle my other Tools duties (challenges, support group and oodles of mails).  Thus, I forgot to go back to the Blogsland.  But my mind was on your post.  You won't believe this but yours was the first I read in my entire stay wiht Tools which I really fall for.  Love it!  Why do I say so?  It spoke not only of a deep natural feeling, but somehow at the back of my mind, I had a guess that you were not really that persona that was enveloped in that beautiful ppiece of poetry.  (And of course, whoever doesn't say it's not ... doesn't know much ...). 

Back to the person behind that thought.  I said it because it reminded me vividly of a person in her young age (many moons ago!).  She's perfectly fine (mentally, emotionally, spiritually).  Except, she loves to play with different moods via different words.  And her favourite emotions (of interest) was (and still is) "pain" and "suffering".  I still recall a very esteemed line:  "... like a leaf let me fade - homeless, let me die like a fool - friendless,  let me lie in the grave - nameless.  But one thing I ask of you.  Never ask me to love you less! ....".  A lot of other unorthodox lines which she dwelled on to.  One deemed piece she did was titled "Ode to A Non-existialist".  And few more bizarre pieces.  She's a very normal person but a lot of her half-baked literaries were (often) abnormal (?) to a certain extent.  (This could be one reason why I fall in love with your "morbidly great" poetry; especially the first 2 lines). 

Anyway, I'm talking about a familiar figure.  An alter ego.  The second self (an inner voice, perhaps).  Anyway, what the heck?  The mind knows no boundary.  And if I may repeat ... love yours (as how some good friends love mine).  Jewels in your brain ... you are a poet and you are amazing ... keep amusing us.  Oh, however and whenever ... go for it.  Wow!  Swords, anatomy and The Bible.  What a combination!  Exhilirating.  Atta boy!  A huge bow with a capital B. (Whoops!  I should have been reminded, this is yours - not my blogInnocent).  Nuff said.

 

Welcome to TOOLS, by the way.  Awesome program, wholesome community.  Great support from both.  Wholesome, indeed.

Thanks for the lovely share.  Very inspiring.  See you for more.  BLOGGIT!

 

Enjoy your journey.  My usual parting spiel:  Clap, splash, brush, smile.  Have a great day, DE!  (Hey, I know it's not the end ... and you're definitely not dead!Cool).

 

Cheers,

Autumn MistKiss 

 

 

I hear you I hear you ... my ears could still be extended (and I could be your brain's twins in the other lifeSurprised).  Sending you good thoughts, love, sunshine and bubbles.