Yeah, I'm sure that seems like a retarded thing to be excited about - but here's the thing. I have pretty much always struggled through depression. I have a hard time staying focused and getting things done. I often find myself in the middle of a project and I turn around and leave it for another one. Horrible habit!
I'm a messy person. I never seemed to really get the hang of staying neat, tidy and organized. My house often looks like I've been hit by a mini-tornado named 'Nicole'. Oh wait! That's me! hehe
Anyways, I haven't been on tools in about a week or so, and I logged back on again yesterday. This program really helps me to challenge my thoughts. So, yesterday, after cooking a wonderful little meal for myself, my thoughts began to take on this form......
Brain: I should clean the kitchen, but I don't want too.
Inner voice: Why not?
Brain: I'm just too tired. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow.
Inner voice: You're too tired to do something that's going to be beneficial to you in the long run? How does THAT work?
Brain: Um.....it doesnt.
Inner voice: EXACTLY
So, I got up and cleaned my kitchen and dining room! Today will be my living room.
Yay! My house is looking better, smelling cleaner, and is feeling like a house again.
I feel like a queen!
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I know what you mean, Nicole! I love that feeling as well!
Raquel
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That's awesome that you were able to listen to your inner voice!!! I too am suffering from depression and have been most of my life. It wasn't until Tools that I realized that I don't have to 'suffer' and instead I can 'be successful in spite of'. I am hoping that this is what my inner voice is telling me anyway. I have a bad habit of not logging in every day because I get into the bad habit of thinking that there is something else more important that needs to be done. I am working on ME being important but it is coming slowly.
I am inspired whenever I read your writings because you always seem to be saying exactly what I need to hear. Thank you and good luck with your living room!!!!