I am 25 I have went to go get help all over and I keep getting turned away since they all say that I am just having a bad day, a lot.  I have had the thought of suicide and won't do it because I don't want to hurt anyone around me.  People also can tell that I hate myself and my low self esteem.

I grew up with a half brother that was 3 years younger that me.  I met my sperm donor after 24 years and that caused a lot of problems.  He did not try to really see me when I was young, once I met him it was okay but it was like the work was done so he wanted to hang out and drink.  I quite drinking bout six months, I was becoming a alcoholic. 

To figure out how to interact with people and have steady relationship.  And, hold a job longer than two years.  I have commitment issues.