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Fri, Apr 13 12:00 AM

Day 5

 

I am on day 5 again, and although I haven't been logging on everyday as I know I should, I am still in the game. I am so grateful for second chances!

 

Life is funny. I know the things that I should be doing in order to be a success, yet when I get to the brink of success, I hold myself back.  What is it in me that feels undeserving?

 

I know I have made mistakes in my past. Mistakes that have probably hurt other people, but most of all, mistakes that have hurt me.  Is it my guilt that holds me back? Is it negative programming from others that makes me feel I don't deserve all the good the universe has to offer me?

 

I am making a choice NOW to allow all good to come into my life.  To allow nothing but good people to surround me. To allow myself to see all the good and beautiful things around me, and to see the good in myself. I am not a bad person, and I deserve to allow all the mental, physica, spiritual l and financial wealth the universe has to offer.

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I like the feeling here. "to allow all good to come into my life."

 

There's a way our society keeps thinking "if I'm bad I don't deserve" "if I'm good I deserve all kinds of stuff." Like...good people should flourish and if I don't, I must be a bad person. It doesn't work out that way. Still we keep believing.  It's what we learned as kids, I think. Good kids get treats and to go out and play. Bad behavior means I don't get good stuff. I donno. The whole concept is interesting. I think harmful, to most of us. I'm just off on a pondering here, brought to mind by your blog.

 

 "to allow good" into your life. I sure like that. To feel worthy of it. To feel YES I CAN take action and move forward and LET myself have good stuff. Sounds like a plan!

Wordbird Wordbird:

Color at times of sorrow

Thanks by the way for you lovely and fascinating response to my blog on wearing a bright purple hat to my step dad's funeral. I love the idea of "rainbow" colors at a funeral. I like the idea you mentioned, in southern African American funerals, to mix in a celebration of life.

 

 In New Orleans they do that by dancing, serving food, playing music, walking together down the street. I think that must be better. To celebrate, in the midst of pain.

 

THANKS! Now I can think of that purple hat with more happiness.