Mosaic Moon:

I'm proud of you!

Good for you. You have a wonderful attitude and please know that what you are feeling is completely normal.

I'm so proud of you because you want to find yourself. Have a love affair with yourself. I know that sounds weird, but really get to know you and you will attract the right person for you.

We are here for you! 

Wordbird:

People fake it

Although I don't know this guy I do know a lot of guys "fake it" when they lose their partner. They might step up their dress, visibly date someone else, laugh a lot, appear on the outside like "Hey I am over it." So...I don't think we can tell what someone is feeling (or not) looking at the outside.

But then there's the matter of why I might be so immersed in thinking about what he's thinking about (or not). Is my value of myself all tied up in what he does (or doesn't) do? Is my pride hurt because he's not showing any suffering? Maybe I'm worried he never really loved and valued me, if he can just walk off and be just fine? Whatever it is, I can't get the answer from him, anymore. I like the idea of bringing the focus back to my life and future. What can I do to comfort and nourish myself through this? I mean, I was going to MARRY the guy. It's something. It's important, that a relationship at that level broke off. Even though it's the best and right thing, it is still hard. So...if it were me I'd do some nice baths, outtings with girlfriends, a few good crying jags, a facial or get my nails done, something happy  for exercise, and then leap back into life. I'm sorry you've had this loss. It's just not fun.