I want to first thank everybody who is following these blogs, or commenting on them. I'm still new to this thing and haven't really learned how to navigate through it all yet but I will learn.
I'm not always confident of myself. I usually live with the attitude of: "just do it", and for that I wonder how sane I really am. My recent engagement to Elisabeth was a process that was thought through more than a thousand times over. I discussed with all of my close friends the possibilities and what they did and didn't like about the idea and then I did more thinking to myself. Quite a few months into my engagement, wedding planning, and life planning I find myself thinking if I made the right decision. Before thoughts travel down the road of uncertainty know this: I am still happy and our problems are just as real as anybody elses. What does scare me is that yes this is one person for the rest of my life, but if things are hard at times now, does it get harder?
Elisabeth and I are perfect for eachother. One of our differences though is that I am always positive and she is more or less always negative. These personatlities clash for an amusing fireworks show on different occasions, but we do end up finding the median for what we need. What I am terrified of is if alot of stuff is worriesome now, will it get better? Is it possible for her to change that mindset of no this wont work or am I being too positive? I've been trying to instill ideas from this in our every conversation changing and correcting what I can, but I can't always be there to hold us both up.
In writing what I just did I answered the question on my own. I did make the right decision in asking Elisabeth to marry me. What I need to do though is ask for her help. Get her to help push this mac truck of lovewith me and not leave me to do it on my own. I do need to acknowledge my all to often sense of pure posative energy and hope and realize that life is not always that sweet. All I'm asking for is the partner I need, the woman I know, and the person I trust to help me through everyday life. I am not the perfect person, and we are not the perfect couple but together we do provide something to eachother that nobody else will ever have.
We have that spark, that snowflake that is different from everybody else's and that is special to us and nobody can take that from us.
I love you Elisabeth...
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That was beautiful
When you put two different people together, with different upbringings, personalities, etc... there will always be moments where things aren't perfect. It is in working through the tough times that you build that strong foundation and learn that you can make it through anything. It sounds like you have found something wonderful and I am sure this woman will work with you to create the life you want together. Congratulations to you!
don't worry.
I have been married for almost 19 years and I can tell you that there will always be times we you two do not see eye to eye. It is not always easy. Relationships take work. however, I have also been on tools for longer than you and I can tell you that it has helped my relationship too. Over the past couple of weeks I have not been as short with my wife and my positive attitude has started to rub off on her. She has not yet started tools but is now talking as if she wants too. So who knows maybe Elizabeth will too someday and you two will be the most successful positive couple on the plant. stanger things have happened. All the best to both of you.