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I want to get some order to my life and be more organized. --I want to have lists to lay out my next day and I want to understand and master my career
I want to only smoke weed and drink on special occasions when i feel like its acceptable. --I especially want to make weed the exception and not the standard
I want to be financially stable and not have to worry about next month's bills --I want to have 1 years worth of expenses in the bank
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My ADD was an excuse

 

 

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Mon, Mar 01 02:27 PM

My ADD was an excuse

 I've been trying a whole buffet of the latest and greatest prescription drugs over the last 2 years in an attempt to figure out how to be more focused.  I was definately the type of kid who would have been classified as having ADHD by todays terms but they didn't really know much about it back then.  Only after I finished University did I decide to take the ADD test where it was determined that I did have a severe case of ADD.  I was originally given dexedrine and it seemed to work at first until the plague of side-effects set in.  Long story short it basically removes your soul and makes you into a robot with insomnia.  After I managed to ween myself off of those little devils I was told that Strattera is less intense and stimulent free because it works on adjusting the seratonin levels in your brain.  I thought it worked for the first month (and at $5.00 a pill it damn well should've) but for all I know it was just a placebo.  After a month it really started clouding my brain and making me more spaced out so I flushed them.  The realization I've come to is that my ADD is a myth....a fabrication of my mind that I've been using as an excuse for years.  It allowed me to slack off and watch TV and smoke weed because it wasn't me doing those things....it was my illness that wouldn't let me focus on my work.  I've stopped using all my ADD meds and now I know that I won't be using them ever again.  My new diagnosis is that I'm a lazy pothead and If I want the changes in my life that I envision then I've gotta suck it up and put out some fucking effort.  Life doesn't really give you anything....you have to take it

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thelandofkirk thelandofkirk: 2010-03-12 12:14:14

says: It's great to be proactive but I think drugs as a tool (rather than a solution) are helpful for many people - it's a personal choice, don't you think?