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Member Since: 05/21/07
Last Login: 12/24/12
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Program in:
Program Progress: Day 4
Member Since: 05/21/07
Last Login: 12/24/12
Viewed: 109128
Program in:
Program Progress: Day 4
Kayla's Challenges:
Kayla's Participating:
Kayla's Participating:
| Mo Money |
| PFR Challenge |
| Exercise your self control over your unwanted addiction |
| The Boost Challenge |
Personal Interests:
Music:
Books:
Too many to list. Like to read international authors, immigrant author, in addition to whatever catches my eye from current selections.
Love Barbara Kingsolver's writing.
Favorite Places:
I Want To See:
My son grow up to be a healthy, happy, accomplished man.
Peace. Ecuador, New Zealand, India, Guinea, Alaska.
Hobbies:
Activities:
Reading, going to museums, bicycling, dancing, hiking, swimming, spending time with friends and family.
Sports:
Movies:
Big, Peter Pan, The Apprenticeship of Duddy Kravitz, Avalon, Diner, O Brother Where Art Thou, Raising Arizona, anything with John Turturro
TV:
Heroes:
Optimistic, giving, humble, reflective, interesting, creative, loving, vibrant souls, especially those who have survived extreme difficulty.
I Want To Meet:
Kayla's Life List:
| Love my life |
| Be of service in my life |
| Be kind, gentle, compassionate, loving and generous to myself, my family and my friends |
| Live a healthy life |
| Live a moral and ethical life |
| Enjoy every day |
| Accept and work with life on its terms |
| Meet life's challenges with grace and humor |
| Let go of fears, worries, resentments, envy, negativity and excuses |
| Embrace confidence, joy, hope and faith |
| Surround myself with people I respect and love |
| Celebrate life with music and dance |
| Read daily for spiritual, intellectual and emotional benefits |
| Travel the world and the seven seas |
| Go on a major bike trip |
| Enjoy the cultural abundance of my city |
| Embrace nature |
| Enjoy the abundance of cooking, sharing and eating sumptuous, lovely, tasty, spicy food |
| Celebrate life with friends |
| Be positive |
| Be responsible |
| Be expansive |
| Wear comfortable, interesting clothing and jewelry |
| Be comfortable and comforting |
| Seek to understand rather than to be understood |
| Be quiet and peaceful within myself |
| Contribute to conversations without dominating |
| Be totally open to learning from others and from experience |
| Be willing to take fearless risks |
| Go hang gliding. |
| Write and be published |
| Have tremendous flexibility in my work |
| Be free from economic insecurity |
| Declutter home. |
| Make my home a beautiful haven. |
| Balance city and country life. |
| Travel to Canada, Greece, Israel, Finland, Russia, Ireland, Wales, China, Germany, Holland, Denmark again. |
| Travel to Thailand, Japan, New Zealand, Australia, Guinea, Mali, Mozambique, Turkey, Croatia, Macedonia, Prague, Italy, Ecuador, Costa Rica, Brazil, |
| Travel cross-country, along country roads. |
| Play the saxophone. |
| Learn a new language - Arabic? Bangla? |
| Take my son to India. |
| Eat delicious, healthy food. |
| Get into the best physical condition possible. |
| Own a country home with a barn where we can hold dances. |
| Own a country home where fruit trees and berry bushes grow. |
comments
What is it with 3:00 a.m.?
Why do so many people get a wake up call at 3:00 a.m. when they're feeling anxious or depressed? I've had many nights where I woke up between 2 and 3 a.m., it's very weird. I think you are feeling aprehensive because you are afraid you will fail. Don't be afraid. You are not going to fail. You are a different person than when you started this program. You are stronger, wiser, more disciplined. You have so much love in your heart for yourself and others, you can never go back, you don't have a reverse gear anymore, you can only go forward. I want you to know something, you prayed for, and I quote "guidance, support, clarity of purpose and connection to the highest creative and loving spirit available." You're prayers have already been answered. (mine too...)
I'm not afraid of failure
Of course I'm apprehensive about starting a new job, but I really do think this job is aligned with my skills, experience, knowledge and vision. I'm not afraid of failing on the job. It could happen, but I've never lost a job or been fired. I've always been a valued worker, who has exceeded standards, according to my reviews. I'm afraid of failing at taking care of myself, my son and my family, because I get so caught up in the job that I forget to focus on my health and relationships. That's what I did in the past.
If I were more balanced, I would have settled for an average GPA when I was working full time in a very demanding job and attending graduate school in the evenings. My son was 2. I couldn't help myself and ended up with a 4.0 average. It really wasn't necessary. In my past job, I led people to bring in numbers that exceeded the "standard" by over 60%. Our organization was in the top 5% as a result. Sure, I'm proud of my success at work, and all of the people I served, but it was at the expense of my health and my family relationships. This time around, my goal is balance and healthy boundaries regarding the value of my time. I know full well how limited time can be.
So while I have landed the dream job, I need to do the footwork to have a dream life. At least this time around I'm really clear on what I want and I have a goal tracker to help me stay clear about my vision and work towards it.
Good Luck
Good luck on your new adventure. Your honesty and courage is an inspiration to me and I'm sure to others at TOOLS.