Seems weird, but the closer I get to the end of the Tools Program, the longer I am taking on the exercises. I mean, I know I don't need to take as long, and I tell myself not to log in or conversely, not to click on finish.
Hmmmm.
I realize the obvious comment may be that I have a fear of my "crutch" going out from under me, or that I must be clinging to this as some kind of protection.. blah blah blah.
Really, I think its because I haven't been thorough enough with some of them, and I am the one who knows this. Inside, my inner voice is whispering: "you didn't answer that one honestly, and you need to do that or you're not really done." At one time, it was so important for me to click finish and stay with the daily login. Then one day Coach mentioned it was ok to take as long as needed on an exercise, and poof, I took two or three days. I realized right away that I took license with that permission and that it really exposed what one of my modus operandi is: to have permission in order to act. How can I ever be proactive, if inside my little girl is still waiting on each and every permission? "Log in daily...ok; Take as long as you need...ok". I suppose the only conclusion is to take as long as I need to feel as though I have SUCCESSFULLY completed the course, and don't worry if I follow instructions as implied. This IS all about making it work for me. Now that the "permission hang up" has once more been exposed, I can see it as one more nail in it's coffin, and I am so ready to leave it behind!