I grew up in Columbus, OH. It wasn't the best area but it definitley wasn't the worst either. I've been ducking my responsibilities ever since I had any, starting with school. I never did very well because I didn't try, I didn't feel like I needed to. I always did and still do feel that I was more intelligent than the busy work that was offered through out school but as I get older I realize why the busy work is so important and i see that the point was lost on me.

I have one great friend who I met during my childhood in Columbus and maintain a strong relationship with him to this day. I aspire in many ways to be like my friend. He has always considered me his equal and that means a lot to me. Yet I haven't committed to anything like he has. I'm not jealous at all, I'm happy for him and always will be, but he is an inspiration to me.

My parents seperated as a result of my ma finding out that my Dad had thrown me to the ground and stomped on me and I consequently blamed myself for the seperation for a long time. My dad had a temper when I was younger and it got out of control every now and then but all in all I consider him a great man and love him for everything he's done for me and my family.

After my parents separated my brothers, my mother and I moved to the Cleveland area to be closer to some of my mothers family. I started my freshman year in a school where I knew no one. I didn't fit in much because the city we rented a house in was an upper class city and I came from the poorer area of Columbus. I made friends quickly though and would even consider myself to have been fairly popular. All in all it took me 6 years to graduate because I had a bad case of skipping school. I'm glad I did it though. Dropping out just didn't seem to be an option.

After high school I moved back to Columbus to be close to my best friends and for one particular girl. I had had a crush on her for years but she also happened to be dating one of my very good friends for about 3 years. After they broke up they remained good friends and I was always there for her when she was hurting because of the break up. A relationship was growing with us and I asked my friend if it was okay if I started seeing her. He said yes and the relationship went well from there for a while. I even asked her to marry me, and she said yes. I spent a ton of money on a ring and we were happy for a little bit longer. We found out she was pregnant and the relationship fell apart. I did a lot of things wrong in the relationship but so did she. I knew the whole way along that she was never over my friend and it tore everything apart for me. I never trusted her or my friend for that matter. She had an abortion that I paid for and we parted ways. That relationship and abortion were the two hardest things I've ever dealt with. People say that they don't regret anything they have done because it all led them to where they are now. I couldn't disagree more. I regret all of it. I wish none of it would have happened. Since then I've just been fumbling through existence day after day. All this is my past starting right now.