Whatever you truly are, it's in there inside of you, lostboy, and when you're ready you'll see it's always been there and you can be exactly who you were all along... Sounds like mumbojumbo, I know, and it is, but it's also just true. You will become what you're meant to become because you're not willing to accept anyone else's definition of yourself. You are the writer of your own dictionary entry, so to speak...
I'm at that point where dreams clash with reality.
I'm at that point where you look in the mirror and say, "Is this what that starry-eyed kid I used to be envisioned his life would be like when he pictured his future?"
I'm at that point where "You only live once" is no longer a cliche but a smack across the face.
I'm at that point where you start hearing the clock tick.
In my freshman year of college, I discovered that I had no idea what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. Sure, many people are undecided their freshman year, but I really didn't even know if I wanted to be in college at all. I come from a blue collar midwestern background and the whole college vibe just seemed foreign at the time. I definitely knew what I didn't want to do. I didn't want the same path as everyone around me. I didn't want to get some lame degree followed by a lame 9 to 5; I didn't want my life to dissolve into suburban obscurity.
So I took a chance and made a leap into the Army after my confusing freshman year.
Ironically, for the first year or two, I wanted nothing more than to get out of the Army and go back to college. After a while I came to terms with my decision and decided to excel at being a soldier. Long story short, joining the military was the best decision I've made. After 7 years of service, I'm out now and have since went on to graduate college, and land that all important 9 to 5, and it is just as lame as I thought it would be. And now I see that future that I once dreaded becoming a reality.
My goal is to forge a new path.
Part of my problem is that I've never really known what I wanted out of life. Much of that comes from not knowing completely who I am.
My hope for the future is to discover who I truly am. By becoming more in tune with myself, I hope to find what it is that make me happy.
For the past several years, happiness has always been two steps ahead of me. I've always anticipated being happy at some point in the "near future." Unfortunately, the "near future" never occurs in the present.
My goal for the future is to be happy in the here and now; to seize every moment of life with optimism.
I want to create my own happiness and help others in the process.
I'd like to give a special thanks to Jason Ellis for introducing me to the site. RED DRAGONS!!!
You are offered your dream job. What job is it?:
Photojournalist / Comedian / Rock Star / ? My problem is that I don't really know the answer to this question. It sure as hell isn't working in bank.
My favorite wild animal is:
Why (describe as much as possible):
It's a tiger. It's a lion. It's confused. I can identify.
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
It doesn't care how small it is or how big the world around it is. I have a chihuahua and he inspires me every day.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
Grilled Chicken pesto with spinach and sun-dried tomatoes.
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
My Mom and Dad
My Mom's Dad
My Dad's Dad
I think the bonds of family are the most sincere. My father passed away when I was 10 and I'd like for my son to meet him. There are so many questions that I would have for my father now that I'm an adult. My two grandfathers are/were the foundation of both sides of my family.
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
The Grand Canyon
My perfect slice of pizza is:
Thin crust with chicken, mushrooms, and extra sauce.
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
Bud Light - keep it simple.
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
I recently ended my fiendish caffeine habit so I'd probably go for the hot chocolate.
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
Happiness for myself, happiness for others, to be remembered when I die.
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring
(separate by commas):
I have satellite radio so I'm too spoiled to pick only 3 CDs. But if you held a gun to my head and made me pick three, Sublime would be one of those for sure.
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
I would make a park with running trails.
A sunset I remember:
Many, many from the rooftop of a palace in Iraq
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be:
That guy from Office Space.
Because he kicked down his cubicle walls.... on so many levels.