The Blues

I can't say that I have suffered depression during the holidays, it is more of anxiety.  In my younger years I had some bad experiences that also took place on holidays.  I would end up in the hospital or away from home during those times.  This went on for a couple of years before I did something to change the situation.  So....during holidays I am always waiting for something bad to happen.

I have my battles with depression.  I have since I was a teenager and didn't know what it was.  It wasn't until 7 months ago that I really learned about depression and the steps for treatment.  I just learned that the way that I felt wasn't normal.  I just learned that life could be better.

Now 7 months later....things are better.  I don't feel that way as often.  And I thank tools for teaching me the skills to change the thought patterns that fuel depression for me.

The lesson today was a great reflective tool for me.  I read it, understood it and could relate to it.  That is one of the best feelings in the world to know other people know what you are going and/or gone through.  I love not alone feeling.  Feeling like a normal part of the group.

Normal that is a big word for me.  I don't see myself that way but I am learning...I am!

I am moving on...and that's normal.

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