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Birth Date: Fri, Aug 30 1974

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Centereach Ny, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

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Jobs: I'm working on that...stay tuned

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Member Since: 01/20/09
Last Login: 12/05/10
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Properly raise these children.
Keep a job
Love my Wife always
Start playing music again without getting smashed
Buy a house
create some normal living condition
Watch my kids play whatever it is they love to play
Create,Paint,Draw,Style..just create
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Sat, Oct 23 03:35 AM

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It's been quite some time since I have been here but I am glad to be back. The whirlwind that is my life has taken me through more failed attempts at sobriety, a Dwi, Detox, 2 hospital stays one for seizures and now for blood clots, almost total seperation from the mother of my children, the birth of my baby girl only to be followed by a battle with child services. Holy shit!!! Its alot different when I write it in a sentence like that. Right now I have a shaky 30 days of sobriety(horray) and I am constantly in an AA meeting, they help me greatly- It's nice to be in a room full of people that share the same lunacy(kinda like here) Well here I go again, still the same but alot has changed and quickly. All I know is I need help, to do this thing called life by my own power doesn't seem to be working out so well. I have a sponser and some good people around me that actually care if I live or die, huh, it's funny when I get so self centered I remove the possiblilty to recieve help. Learn to recieve the gift and stop being so nervous. Today was a rollercoaster but it seems to be coming to a halt. Tommorow, meeting, doctor, meetings and then sunday I will be with my children. One minute at a time, it's all I can handle right now.

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Javanne Javanne:

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Good for you taking the steps to sobriety.

An oldtimer once told me 10,000 meetings in 10,000 days.  And when you don't WANT to go is when you NEED to go.  Truer words were never spoken.

Must be at odds with the powerlessnes over alcohol and the empowering nature of this course.  Sorry if I am confusing you.  You have the power to stay sober.  Stay that way better in the long run from someone who has now been "sober" for twenty years.

Keep going back, It works if you work it.