Hi,

My Name is Joshua.

I've been introduced to Tools to life by the Jason Ellis Radio show on Sirius/XM Radio.

I give them the credit for me taking time to change myself. 

I'm not sure what i should say "my" story should be. I guess i'm just ready to learn how to talk with people, and to except who they are.

I have issues with people being lazy; i see my self as a go go go kind of guy. When i don't see the same out of someone i put them into a place in my head that is sub-par.

I have a rather good child hood... yet not really a father figure who would talk to me about real life issues. In my house, if there was a problem we just didn't talk about it. It creates Huge problems when it comes to tight relationships with women.

I just can't get past the way i am about keeping everything close to my sleave.

I want to be able to handle what other people consider typical family situations better.

i want to be able to express my self in the way i feel with out becoming broken or overly emotional. Mostly I want to be able to not shut off when it comes to tough emotional times.