My name is Liz. I am 27 and have a daughter (19 months) named Paige. I am currently living at my cousin's house (as of 2 days ago) becaause my girlfriend and I broke up. We love eachother dearly, but our personal issues are clouding our abilities to show love and be compassionate towards eachother. I am here because I feel like ever since I got pregnant I have lost sight of who I am and become a slug in life. 

I live in Indiana and have my whole life. My parents met when they were 13 and were married "forever." However, when I was a freshman in highschool, my perception of relationships and love changed forever, when my father had an affair and got another woman pregnant. My parents divorced and my life changed in a way I didn't understand. I dated boys, always "long term", but never truly felt like they cared about me or loved me. My insecurities always push them away and I ended up "alone" and ..ta da... INSECURE. Repeat this process about 5 times, insert daughter, and we arrive at the recent past. I fell in love with a woman, a co-worker. She thought I was amazing and I loved it. My family did not. They caused problem after problem between us, and we began to drift apart. Once again my insecurities reared and the same thing has happened that always happens. I am once again sitting here thinking, "how did I let this happen?"

I want my future to be mine. I want to be happy for my daughter without it coming from someone else. I don't want my daughter tp grow up thinking someone else must love you for you to feel good in life. I have always wanted to be a more physical person, but I am always worried about looking foolish, or hurting myself (I'm very clumsy). I have many interests, but nothing that truly excites me. This is a step in finding a new me, one my daughter can look up to, and one that will continue to be happy regardless of who is/isn't there.