Just a little happier every day is more than I thought would happen

I was diagnosed with dysthymia when I was 15 years old.  Basically, that's a low grade depression that while it doesn't have highs and lows as other depression, it sits just below the 'happy' line and makes it hard to come up for air.  After many times in and out of counseling, which I definitely needed to deal with certain aspects at different times in my life, I always felt frustrated that I couldn't get my brain to function at a slightly higher level so that I could let go of the albatross on my back.  It was exhausting to constantly be just a little bit sad with no explanation and very little relief.

My sister introduced me to Tools and suggested I give it a try and I'm very glad I did.  While I haven't figured out my 'dream' yet, I now function better.  I am finally feeling like those wires that threw me into the sadness have shifted and I'm able to stay away from that place a bit more than I did before.  I know I'll always be working to improve but after sixteen years of never understanding why all the counseling and good things in my life weren't helping me to be a little happier on a regular basis, this is a great achievement for me.

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