melody33:

You can do it!!

It sounds to me like you're doing the right thing by going to see a professional.  I don't think anyone makes a clean cut and never has a bad day(s) sometimes.  But, you are doing what is right, in my opinion, by acknowledging your feelings and seeking help.  Good luck, stay strong.

regidrlng:

thanks bro!

wow brotha! ur atotall inspiration to me..i havent been able to quit smoking yet and my drinking is once a month,2 weeks,and so on.  but reading ur blog was cool cause i get to hear from someone who has done it and stuck to it! thanks man! and stay stong,

joyyaa:

keep going even if u have to crawl

u have taken a giant steps so what u r going through is resistance to all this great change which is very normal but excrutatingly painful and difficult.

yhis is how u grow..keep going and when u have one difficult day keep reminding your self its just a day .

dont give up u r doing great dont let one or even few days make u low.

go on go on gon no matter what and one day u will look back and wonder how u make it through..god bless u:)

GoManGo:

You are breaking the last of the chains that are keeping you down

Take the bad day, acknowledge it and move on.  Have a great one to make up for it.  When I have a bad day, I immediately find someone and help them in some way.  I believe it makes up for the bad day I had...

Come on...you can do anything...make it good for you!

That is where my screen name came from...

The old saying of "If you are in hell...keep going" is true.

GOMANGO and keep GOING!!! Never give up...ever!

Celena:

Hey...

Things sound shitty for you right now. You aren't alone. Although addiction is something I battled years ago, I understand your plight. Just because you are feeling this, remember it's okay. Sometimes you have to fall down while you walk through life. Falling down doesn't mean you failed at walking. You only failed at walking if you refuse to get back up. The fact that you acknowledge your feelings and fears means you can and will get up and continue walking. Sometimes to get up you need someone else's hand. You obviously know that or you wouldn't seek help. You will get through this if you believe. Yes your battling in your head and feeling like giving in to your addictions but you said yourself you will regret that. That there shows that you DO have the power to control your thoughts and actions. SMILE right now! I mean it, do it! Smile. Are you smiling yet? Don't make me come through the internet and make you smile. You won't like my fingers at the sides of your mouth pushing your lips into a smile so just smile for me right now. Okay, you smiling? Perfect. Now say out loud, I have the power within to control these negative thoughts and feelings. I have the power to solve the problems I am experience. I am powerful and I can do anything I want. Keep that smile on your face and show life what you got! Big Hugs!

tenaciousj:

Hang Tough -- You Can Do This

It's okay to go down for a day.  Be kind to yourself.  You can do this, you deserve this and we believe in you.  Take good care of yourself and remember you can start your day over at any time. 

Mike11:

Thank you everyone

Thanks so much for the support everyone. Your comments are really appreciated. At a time when I am down it's great to know I'm not alone. I feel a lot better tonight. I went to work today even though I just wanted to say f it again, and mope around all day. I'm really glad I didn't do that, and by the time I got home, I had a lot of energy back and even worked out. I didn't succumb to the temptations and I feel powerful again. Thanks everyone.

docmason71:

Good for you young Man!

Hey Mike you are doing great! Reaching out to others when you are feeling down isn't that easy to do.  I'm just an old guy that's been banged up a few times in life because of being to proud to ask others for help.  Look at you... you are learning to give others the gift of letting them help you at a very young age, and believe me it is a gift!  I always wanted to help others because it made me feel like a hero, but giving others the privilege to help me when I was down was something that did not allow in my life until I was well into my 40's. I've been sober now for 19 years and I still have days when I wonder why I feel so down.  It's called life.  People say "this too shall pass" mostly when things are going bad, but I find that saying holds true when things are good too.  Life has ups and downs that we all must deal with... Just remember... the drugs and the drinking won't make anything better, and you can stay away from those things One Day at a Time my friend!  Keep up the good work!