I am trapped with a man who hates me. I have 3 beautiful children that i just want to see happy. I'm 28 and have been isolated from life for 8 years now. I just want to see the sun shine again.

I always wondered why my mother disliked me so much, i tried to hard to please her, but she always found a fault with me, maybe the drugs told her i was a no good child, maybe the alcohol told her i was useless...Either way,i believed it..I never was a bad child though, never did drink,party, drugs...I just wanted to make her happy. I didn't realize that would be my future relationship with men. Always trying hard to be a wife, but never good enough to be treated like one,so i tried harder and harder, and when all else failed,i believed that i must be a bad person if my mother or a man could never love me.

I want to take care of my kids. I want to not be under someones control. I want to go to college and be able to provide for them without depending on someone who dangles my future by a thread. I would rather be alone and happy, then with someone and hurt and scared and lonely. I want to love me