That title probably doesn't make much sense, but it's okay...(smile)...
I stopped by a friends blog prior to visiting you all here (by the way - thank you for coming - although I'm found quite often talking to myself, it's nice to share my thought with someone who won't always disagree - LOL - My inner voice is QUITE opinionated - to say the very least)
and the topic from the Coach was about being "On"...did you guys get that far yet? It's cool if you hadn't - you'll get there - those of you who have might have taken his conversation a couple of different ways. I noticed that my 'take' on it wasn't what my friend had felt about the topic.
"On" to me is energy, application, motion, engaged...for some it means masking those other issues that would normally be front burner concerns, but have to be placed on hold to be dealt with later on...
basically, I'm always on (I take some 'stuff' to help me NOT to be "On" - doesn't always work - LOL - and I'd stop taking them if I knew that I could drink enough water to get my proper dosage of the needed medications...alright, I'll stop...for now)
I did wonder, reading and listening to Coach, why it is that we are selective about our "On Star" state...why we can be "On" for the concert or "On" for the date - but we're not "On" for other things (my fingers are getting tired of making that little quotation mark signal - ever have someone do that all the time when they talk - ARGH!)
so basically after digesting the information and acknowledging the lesson - I digressed to if we are selective about that - why are we also selective about our other stuff - he talked about relationships - and mentioned something about "Some of you may not be in a relationship right now" (Um, thanks for rubbing that one in...) - but he said that we would apply this to other things, like the relationship with our families, and friends and co-workers - I agree - but I'm thinking - me. I mean, after all it is all about ME, right?
So, if you were to make a list of where you were in the scheme of things - where would you be? Monk isn't on the list - so before I forge any new relationship with someone - I need to reorganize my list - and I do this daily, and some how - when I look at all the stuff I've done - I see that I've not bee on the list at all during the day - so how do we make it stick? See what I mean?
I can say to myself - this is one of those days that I'm going to take lunch - eat something that is warm and looks like an item I could label as food (for human consumption) and take my time to eat it...
and at the end of the day - Um - I either forgot to eat lunch - or a handful of pretzels - or - an open can of cold spinach - so what's that???!!?
I can rationalize it as - Had work to get done - this couldn't wait - I made a promise that I forgot - I have to keep my word and do it - blah blah blah bllllllaaag-ack...and I'm still hungry...LOL
I don't know - it's just one of those things I'm dealing with - you guys might not be in such bad shape - let's not set me up as a positive example - okay? Monk - the WHAT NOT TO DO...Ha ha...at least until I get it right...
"He hurried to me slowly in the middle of the night...I'd said I'd wait forever if it didn't take to long..."
-- Monk
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"Inward, Onward and Upward" Monk!
I see what you mean about finding the 'me' in this being turned on thing. Our views are not so different. Compartmentalizing emotional issues still have to be dealt with some way. It is a form of internalizing the pain--like Scarlet O'hara.
The internal me has to become merged with the external me! Once I overcome my negative self talk, I might learn to like that 'On person' instead of thinking she's a fake. I hope I get there--(if it doesn't take too long!) Pat
Not that far yet, but thinkin about it anyway
interesting...
So many of us don't have us in our lives at all. Have you done your collage thing yet? When I did mine, I realized that I wasn't really there, nor were my family or friends. Others, when they do their collage, have themselves at the centre and friends surrounding them.
Perhaps it's identifying the "me" in the middle that would help us be "on" for ourselves.....