You know, while I was reading the topic of diet, food, sustenance... I had all these thoughts and questions...
Maybe you did too...
Having been hammered about all this stuff from all sides has ultimately caused me to just get so fed up...and I have chosen to just step outside of the 'food' arena.
Probably not the best thing. I've never had a love/hate with food, I've just never cared about it at all...I'm a bit over weight, could be worse, could be better...but...
I did the exercises and wasn't the least be surprised to re-read that I'm totally disinterested...
but...
Truth be known, I'm not that far off from those who deal with eating disorders, I'm not a binge person, I'm not a closet eater, nor am I the kind of person that 'fasts'...but it is an area that I have always realized I can assert control - either I eat, or I don't...either I take the time to cook it, or I don't...but the way I deal with it is a direct reflection on me, and how I feel about myself...and the bottom line is all things considered...when it comes to food and that reflection - I treat myself like shit/crap/poo/waste - whatever...
as I had written before, however, I am getting better...since starting this program I have started to at least buy food...and I'm not perfect...and though, more often than not...my choice to eat a meal that has been prepared and actually warm has been minimal...I'm starting to do it...little by little...
Soon, I might even get to the point where I eat as well as my dog...one day, one meal at a time...
I would like to understand about eating and remove whatever it is that seems so complicated to me...
Part of me doesn't want to - because - well, this might some silly to some of you - but as an example, when I didn't have a car, I used public transportation, or walked or rode a bike - which was much better for me - now that I have a car, I can talk myself into driving more than the alternatives...so I worry that if I had the knowledge and desire to mess around with food, would me that I would get fatter and lazier...and what not...
Of course, if that made sense to you - that might worry me too (LOL)...
Ah well -
It's nice to have visited with you...
I hope all is well...
Look forward to dishing with you later...eh?
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I have a friend who thinks exactly the same thing
I don't think she's had a proper meal in months, and it shows. Always tired, depressed and generally low in energy.
As for me, perhaps I love food a bit too much. I find it a joyous, sensuous experience - the sight (composing food on a plate as aesthetically as possible is similar to painting a great picture), the smell (preferably not of burning flesh but something to stimulate the tastebuds), the touch of different textures and colours. And of course, taste.
The problem could also be WHAT you're eating. Who can resist fresh (pref. organic) vegetables and fruits? I always make sure I buy the best available, as I see it as a reflection of self-value, or being good to one's self.
been there, got the T-shirt (hmm, size large..._
Hey Monkish one -
I have an odd relationship with food, myself. I like it. I like preparing it when I am feeling good about myself. I eat toast and cheese and the occasional egg when I'm not. Aand I end up cycling downwards into a feeling bad generally thing after a few days of this. Every once and awhile, I have to have a slab of steak. The rest of the time, meat is neither here nor there (well, but salmon, though...mmmmm) Probably part of that has to do with swallowing problems I've had for awhile.
I know I feel better about all sorts of things when I eat lots of fruits and veggies, fish and yogurt. But often my mouth doesn't FEEL like eating these. So we have discussions, my mouth and I about what the body needs. Sometimes it wins, sometimes I win.
Most of the time its a schizophrenic mind split which keeps my diet interesting, anyway...;-)
They say knowledge is power... chew, chew, chew
Self realization is a good beginning. Until you realize what your thinking, what you're doing, and why you're doing it... you can't do anything about it. Sounds like you've made a good start down that road.
Food is so basic to our survival. I suspect we all have some sort of issues with eating. I tend to swing between extremes. If I'm feeling flush and feeling good about myself and life in general, I tend to eat well. I cook wonderful meals at home and go to some very nice restaurants. I eat regularly and enjoy a balanced diet. If I'm a bit down, I tend to not eat as regularly and I eat a lot of fast foods and snack foods. When I'm busy, I often just forget to eat at all. I'll start working as soon as I get up in the morning and then, late in the day, realize that I've not had so much as a snack. So I'll decide to eat as soon as I finish whatever and I'll get busy again. By bedtime, I will still not have eaten.
Doctor's orders. I am now consciously eating three meals a day at relatively consistent times and making every effort to make sure I have a healthy, balanced diet.
You know what? It's not as easy as it sounds to break old habits, but you can do it. You can do it.