The week is done...I feel like I've done fairly well on "Keeping on - Keeping on" - I followed the check list - not all of it was 100% successful, worked with what I had at the moment and always applied myself...
I have to watch the inner voice thing - because it's really quite abusive...so...I had to practice 'letting go' when I wasn't able to give 100% - no excuses, just choices I made that didn't pan out - LOL...
but I was thinking the other day - actually after that show - The Biggest Loser - and they sent all of them home for a week to see how they were able to manage themselves outside of the 'perfect' environment...
and I wonder sometimes about this - what happens after the graduation from tools...
I've read things before about people who've attended seminars that would last weeks and months (retreats and what not) and then there is this euphoria - only to arrive home and sometimes not even make it back to the sanctuary of the home/apt/abode - and realize that it wasn't 'reality'...
It's sort of like the therapist that says - "You're doing great dealing with your co-dependency" - knowing that I'm not even close to being in a situation where I would be tested...
Does that make sense?
What really happens...?
I also thought about my buddy "WS" and his comments in his blog - about being able to communicate here about feelings and thoughts...and what not...
and I wondered - why is it that we are contributing to a public blog in this area - where we wouldn't have considered to do so in - say - Facebook or Blogger or MySpace or any other type of area...?
Just thought I've been having...
Also...just one other thought....
You know the anonymity of being online - would you be as nice to me and as supportive if we weren't in an online program? If we were in a 'treatment' or whatever...? Would we even be talking...?
I ask that because some of us have chosen to post our real pictures - others images - or avatars - I was just wondering...
There is much that all of us see - by reading the blogs - that we have in common - and we are learning together - the same things...
The information provided - we hear our own personal messages - even though the video, reading, talking is all the same - we hear something different and it motivates us to change...how cool is that, eh?
We are all from different backgrounds - it doesn't seem to matter what the religion, or spiritual level - or none - it doesn't matter whether we are male or female - we all acknowledge that we have allowed ourselves to be 'sucked into the victim and helplessness of things' and we want to make the change - and can't seem to do it - right now - on our own...that's cool...right?
The 'agenda' is to take control...of what we do have a say in - which is our emotions, our choices...so this is cool...
I don't doubt the program or the advances I've made so far - or in those of my peers/friends that I've made here...
I just have these questions and wondered if you guys have thought about / felt / pondered / wrote about the same things...
K - nuf sed...
-- Monk
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Hi Monk
Thoughts are things so we'ld better pick good ones. When we experience our own growth and share it, it expands and our friends grow too. Tools is great and it will change our lives in ways we don't even realize until after we have changed, and then recoginze it. Being a monk { of course} you realize that the inner work happens before the outer work shows up, and it will! Just keep faith in your dreams and they will manifest out of nowhere when you least expect it. I promise. And yes, even if this was not an internet thing, I would still share with you myself and be interested in how you are doing.
-Michelley
Interesting thoughts
as someone near the very very end of tools, i wonder about things, too. Will it stick? Some of the things already haven't under stress.
The support seems to be real enough - with many former Toolers hanging around to cheer on the rest, and private conversations going on, and in my area, a get together.
But you are right. The most useful thing I heard from tools was about self-control. And I'm working on it, day by day.
The longer process (than a workshop, etc) does seem to allow you to set the messages in deeply...
Good luck, and keep going!
hi Monk
hi monk
I think it is normal to question things. I
n fact i think all critical thinkers will question,and examine.
Are you familiar with the movie" What da bleep do we Know?" its a movie that explains quantum physics ,its very profound. and i think it supports alot of what tools to life says. i highly recomend it.
I personaly believe that at the end of the course we will all continue it on in our daily lives
I admit i have had doubts about tools to life. i think that is normal , however those doubts are dwindling as i see results.
we probally will slip from time to time perhapps . but tools is not about becoming perfect its just about improving who we are, so we can get to where we need to be in life,and be happy,productive,calculated, steadfast,mindfull, carring, souls.