Feeling Overwhelmed

I feel so bad today.  I lied.  I didn't go in to work and told them I was sick, because I was just too exhausted and overwhelmed to deal with work. 

I worked an extra day last week and had to fly to Sacramento for the day, which totally wiped me out and then I had tried to help my daughter deal with her housing issues at school and spent the day moving her yesterday.

I feel like I should be able to handle all of this but it just feels like too much.  I don't want to blame it on my fibromyalgia and I don't want to complain, but I guess I am.

Tools just seems like to much to do.  The list keeps getting longer and it feels like too much.  I don't know if I should wait between days and give myself more time to integrate the new stuff or just give up.  I say I want to change, but it feels like so much to change that I won't be able to do it.  I can't seem to keep all the balls in the air. 

I'll exercise a couple of times, then get busy trying to clear out the clutter, then try to sleep more and it all seems like a mountain of "shoulds". 

I feel like a failure when I read about how wonderful this is for everyone and at the same time I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself.

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Tags: depressed, sad, overwhelmed