Wow! I'm enjoying this course. It's nice to know that my only goal right now is to do this course every day. Sometimes I get overwhelmed and try to do too much in all areas of my life; then nothing gets accomplished. My husband teases me about this course because I am the type of person who goes from one thing to another to another always searching to improve my life. But today I think I may have had a breakthrough moment. I'm always searching for that magic pill or quick fix but never willing to put in the effort for any of it. That is why I'm so drawn to the magazines at the checkout counter. You know lose 20 pounds by Memorial Day and such.... Tonight I wanted to buy this diet pill that had a testimony on it that said she had lost 27 pounds in 8 weeks. That is what I wanted....but then I read the fine print ..about diet and exercise and I realized that she didn't get those amazing results with just popping a pill. She put in great effort in eating right and exercising every day of those eight weeks to get that way.
I have been working on my checklist little by little . Some days I forget to do a lot of it. Even though I print out the checklist everyday..I STILL forget to check it!! But I do catch myself sometimes to remember to smile. And the other day I heard my inner voice ask the question True or False when I had thought a negative thought about myself. And then my inner voice told me to be a little more gracious and spend a little more money then I wanted to to put gas in my mother's car for her. After I did it...I was glad I did. My mother does so much for me I shouldn't be so selfish.
I was close to being on time to day too. Almost made it if I hadn't stepped in dog doo doo in her house..while leaving my mother's dog out for her. Yeah didn't plan for that. I thought I got over there soon enough for her little dog but it wasn't early enough for that little guy.. Then I can't beleive I stepped in too! So I had to clean the floor and change my shoes. I had planned from the time I was going to leave backwards so I knew when I needed to be out the door.. but hadn't added in any unexpected things happening like that.
I'm also brushing my teeth more. Just thinking to myself that brushing my teeth shows I care about myself ...motivates me to do it. Then I drink 4 little three oz. Dixie cups of water to get 12 oz in after I brush. It works for me.
I loved going shopping. It's a constant battle to decide what is important to buy when money is so tight. I'm a stay at home mom with 4 kids....who really needs to find a job! I don't want to.... but I need to soon. Anyways.. the Body Shop and Bath and Body are over thirty miles away in other towns. So I just went out and bought a big bottle (NOT the small bottle) of Nutrogeana'a Rain Bath. It smells a lot like the Amber bath wash I like at Bath and Body. And I got a exfoliating wash cloth and a travel toothbrush and travel toothpaste. I'm glad I did cause that is one thing I hate ....food in my teeth after eating at a reasteraunt.
I catch myself throughout the day doing the breathing exercises and I also remind myself to smile more. But I need to be more consistent. Would it be too anal to set my phone alarm maybe every two to three hours later and work on my checklist? I carry my checklist around and then never reference it because many times my life seems too distracting and overwhelming.
So todays lesson..My goals aren't specific enough. I'm haven't been willing to put in the effort to achieve them either. I have also been focusing on the end result of my goals and not the day to day..."How am I going to get there?" And then being disappointed when I haven't reached it. I like the idea of Law of Accumulation.
The thing about money. I need to find a job...but I don't want to do just any thing and get stuck there. Reality pretty much dictates that that I'm going to have to take what I can get for now. And work on getting a better one later. Our coach says to do what you do well and then the money will come. What if you don't KNOW what you are good at? This is really HUGE for me.
I liked the analogy of time compared to a million dollars. ... and also being happy. I'm a big time waster. And I need to figure out why I don't get more accomplished in a day. And lastly being happy. I find it difficulut to be happy when there are so many outside forces happening to me beyond my control. My kids.. finances.....husband. I know I'm making myself sound like a victim now aren't I? I have a lot to think about. How do I become happier?
