First of all, I'm not very good at writing english neither in malay, I score average during exam. So, please don't mind me if I done any grammar mistake.

  Well, my fullname is Roberto Rayster Linus, I'm still 16 years old and I'll be 17 in August. I'm a chirstian and a kadazan peoples but shame to me, I not very good at speaking my mother tongeu.

   I live in a village surrounded by nature. A village life is very tough, heavy work every day just to have a decent meal, but unfortunately that was the old days of my life, now well, I'm a bit lazy person, everyday I'm down with my feeling.

  Something happen in my life, now I at my worst mental, physical and religious or social state. Everything seem falling apart. But there still a little strength left in me. I don't know if I can stand it anymore.

   During my childhood, I live at a very wonderful place. I have many friends, fun there and fun here. I got fat before I enter primary school and the children school (I don't know its name in english, sorry).

   Many good and bad experience I had gone through. Unfortunate for me, I became a Individualisme, why, because I spent to much time playing computer games. I receive my first computer because I got First ranking (exam) in my class during Form. There it all began. 4 years I still an individualisme until.....

   A girl came into my life, well I never feel like that before. Monkey love my parents said. She change my life, I feel a powerful force surge in my body. I want to change my life for her but I didn't aware of it. During that time, I'm overweight kind of guy, so when my father start taking me for a jog, I jog regularly everyday even I'm in weak condition. Maybe its bolimia. When I got a little thinner (not thin but still a little overwieght), she took notice of it, but because I'm a needee person at that time, I lost her. I can't tell everything.

Maybe some other time.

   Now, with my condition, I think less about my future but someday I want to be an evironment Enginer or a soldier, police and anything that don't always sit infront of the table.

   I having doubt about it, I'm not in a science strem and I have hearing problem. I don't know if I can be an evironmental enginer nor a soldier because that my ambition. I'm a little open mind kind of person, if i can't be that, there still many job out there.