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Birth Date: Sun, Aug 05 1973

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Salem Oregon, United States (map)

I am: In Relationship

Schools: McNary High

Jobs: I have been a server for about 9 years now. I've worked @ IHOP, Sharie's, and Applebee's. Have yet to break that that 3yr. mark. I am also a mother of 4 wonderful children,3 boys(7,9,&almost 14) 1 girl,13. I am also a loving mate for a very deserving man.


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Cancer,really???!!!!

 

 

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Sun, Aug 10 04:06 PM

Cancer,really???!!!!

 

I finally got the nerve to call my Mom and accept her request to come visit for the first time. We had a nice conversation and I told her that I was excited to see her and my kids were as well. This seemed to really warm her up. You could hear it in her voice. Thank you Wordbird for the advice to just BE with her and not to ask too much at once. You are also right,she would have already explained herself by now if she could or wanted to. Our relationship is vulnerable and fragile.  She mentioned not being the Mom I needed and I said Better late than never. That made me feel good to say that and I really mean it. It made me feel good she said that as well. Being 35 now, I don't need a Mom I just want to be her friend. My children will also like to get to know their Grandma!!

I told her that I was getting married in 2010. She asked to be invited if she is still around then. Of course I said yes but then asked her why she would she not be around,it was only about two years away! I learned that she is sick every morning and sees the doctor regularly. I asked what was wrong and she would not come out and say much so I asked if she had cancer or something and she said it was looking like it. I cried.

Not to sound self centered but I finally get to have her in my life and now she is sick? My heart aches for her. 

PRECIOUS NOW!!! Working hard to live in it. Accepting the things I can not change. I pray for her!!! LOVE AND LIGHT-SAHNDRA

 

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